Lamento no poder ayudarte.

La verdad, yo no soy la persona indicada para hacer tal cosa. Pero tú conoces a muchos hombres que pueden dar un mucho mejor ejemplo. Yo no soy la persona indicada. No soy gregario.
Ten en mente también, Mayté, que se predica con el ejemplo. Tanta porquería que te has metido a través de los años por mera fisiología debió dejar secuelas y daños cada vez menos reparables. ¿Por qué no intentas la homeopatía? ¿Por qué no te vuelves a meter la misma basura que tanto tiempo consumiste? ¿Será por eso que tu organismo ya empezó a agarrarte rencor? Tu pides a tu cuerpo que no te juzgue por tus acciones, pero ya no puedes engañarlo con medicinas mágicas y doctores magníficos.
Y hablando de rencor, como rencoroso que soy, mis enseñanzas me las reservo con mayor razón incluso si fuera yo la última soda en el desierto.
Me desaparezco cuando hablas. Parcamente contesto monosílabos. No regreso tus llamadas. Te dejo hablando sola.
Debe haber razones por las cuales no pregunto tus pormenores y bitácora.
Debe haber razones por las que no quiero oírlas.

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You break my back
You won't break me
All is black
But I still see
Shut me down
Knock me to the floor
Shoot me up
Fuck me like a whore

Trapped under ice
Comfortably cold
I've gone as low as you can go
Feel no remorse
No sense of shame
Time's gonna wash away all pain

I made a god out of blood
Not superiority
I killed the king of deceit
Now I sleep in anarchy

Sacrifice to the cause
Turn your code into law
Compensate to validate the loss
Take a thief
Nail him to a cross

Gospel of rage
Faction of hate
Deviate from the absolute
Born of revenge
Raised on cement
Chaos created government

I made a god out of blood
Not superiority
I killed the king of deceit
Wake me up in anarchy

Path of kisses running down your body...

Underneath the twists of the sheets and the bareness of your body, caressing away your skin as I held to your nude thighs, as within my arms I felt you... and I kissed the burning touch of your chest... burning...

Well, well, well...

And then you put your arms around me and we tumble to the ground and then you say:

Avoidant personality disorder:
A personality disorder characterized by a pervasive pattern of social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy, and extreme sensitivity. People with avoidant personality disorder often consider themselves to be socially inept or personally unappealing, and avoid social interaction for fear of being ridiculed or humiliated.
Avoidant personality disorder usually is first noticed in early adulthood, and is associated with rejection by parent or peers during childhood. Whether the rejection is due to the extreme interpersonal monitoring attributed to people with the disorder is still an open question.

The DSM-IV-TR, a widely used manual for diagnosing mental disorders, defines avoidant personality disorder as a "pervasive pattern of social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by some of the following:

1. avoids occupational activities that involve significant interpersonal contact, because of fears of criticism, disapproval, or rejection
2. views self as socially inept, personally unappealing, or inferior to others.
3. is unusually reluctant to take personal risks or to engage in any new activities because they may prove embarrassing
4. is unwilling to get involved with people unless certain of being liked
5. is preoccupied with being criticized or rejected in social situations



They are so preoccupied with monitoring themselves and others that producing fluent speech is difficult.

Research suggests that people with avoidant personality disorder, in common with social phobics, excessively monitor their own internal reactions when they are involved in social interaction. The extreme tension created by this monitoring may account for the taciturnity of many people with avoidant personality disorder. Avoidant personality disorder is reported to be especially prevalent in people with anxiety disorders, although estimates of comorbidity vary widely due to differences in (among others) diagnostic instruments. Research suggests that approximately 10-50% of the people who have a panic disorder with agoraphobia have APD, as well as about 20-40% of the people who have a social phobia.


Natural course of the disorder

People with avoidant personality disorder often experience vicious cycles of withdrawal. This reinforces the avoidant's fear of rejection and encourages further withdrawal. Another common development is the appearance of so-called "second-line defenses" in order to deal with the anxiety that the avoidance creates (ibid.). Examples of such defenses are a denial of the fear of rejection, or a replacement of their fear of rejection with a defensive insensitivity. The latter mechanism is called "hardening".

¡Ah, que recuerdos aquellos!

Pues a veces pienso que yo maté a mis abuelos de un envenenamiento, ya que ninguno de los dos veia, y como a m´ˆme gustaba mucho jugar con solventes, medicinas, detergentes, huevo, etc., y le hacia al quimico-cocinero.Entonces, cuando me di cuenta de que los abuelos ni veian ni podian huir, les daba yo té de lo que estuviera haciendo, pero con mucha azucar. Y pues varias veces les di a probar mis menjurjes para ver a que sabian, y creo que en general les gustaba mucho colaborar conmigo.
La ultima vez mezclé petróleo con jabon y no recuerdo que más, el caso es que era un té con nata porque le eché lustrador para muebles del Stanley, y se lo tomaron muy bien. Como a los 3 dias se murió mi abuelo. Pues ya estaba muy viejito y como ustedes saben, morir de viejo no implica culpa porque ya falla todo, y el señor ya estaba de a tiro mal. Medio misteriosa la muerte, pero en fin, ¡Ah que recuerdos aquellos!